Go away!

For the time being... I just want to enjoy myself and no matter what you'll say, it doesn't matter.
I do what I want even it's a drastic decision. If it happens, it happens and I don't want to force myself into what I won't.




notakaki: Goodbye stress!

the reason

Sometimes we need a space or time for ourselves.

When you lived in the world with full of quarreling then you realized that you need your space. Your own world to breath out without thinking with all this nonsense.

Quarreling.

Shouting.

Divorce.

...

Back together.

Quarreling. Again. And again. Till now.

And I decided to get out from this kind of "world" for a moment. But I knew if I go from that world but still stay in the same region it will not help. I should get away from this region. Far away. 

But still.. I need "something" to support my decision.

Its not about STUDY at all. Its about my own world.

So here where am I now. Alone. No quarreling.

Even I'm here. A thousand miles from your world..why you have to tell me about what happened. Its tiring to heard it. Give me some space.

If you want to say that I'm stupid and coward. Silakan..

notakaki: i hate missing someone and not being able to do anything about it.

...curhat?

*Sigh!*


There was a reason I've been here.


Will reveal later.






notakaki: semua orang punya jalan masing-masing. depends on them to choose which is better.

Beautiful Night

Tuesday. I got text msg from my sweet girlfriend si Aya yg dah lama tak jumpa kott. hehe.

Gf: Kakak,free x ptg nie? Jom jumpa kejap after office hour..

*SGT HAPPYNYA*

Me: kat mane

Gf: kat area ofis ko jelah kot..aku gi sana lepas keja..kalau ko free lah, kalau tak esok pun boleh...

*hello..takkan aku lepaskan peluang nie kan...dah lama kot buat date. But it'sso HARD to meet her!*

Me: kat ofis aku xde port best. Jmpe kat jj lah ajak cik feeza skali..malu ai jumpa u sorg.auw! kiki

Gf: Gedik! Ko tak suruh pun mmg aku gi ngan dia lah..

After office hour 5.30pm. Sharp! I waited for Aima si MomToBe outside my office and straight away drive to JJ Cheras Selatan.

Around 6pm, we are in JJ. Unfortunately, got text msg from Aya that she will be late and done her work at 6.30pm. Ok. I don't know what to do cause pity to Aima to walk around the mall. Dah tunggu masa kot nak beranak. Buatnya terberanak kat JJ tue..tak ke naya. T_T

Then we decided to wait them at  the food court since my perut pun dah lapar apatah lagi si Aima kan..kan...

Around 7.30 pm kot baru diorang sampai.. Hmm perut dah masuk angin la syg...mmg tiada keinginan la untuk saya makan. Sorry.

I asked them to lepaking in Starbucks. Cozy sket. Here we start the conversation about me. About Us. May be more to me. Hehe. But I think u'll get no answer. Nothing. Especially Feeza. Ahaha sorry babe..bukan takmo cerita but it's too personal and too details perhaps we have not enough time to chat that night. You know I have my curfew. Hehe.

Even though we are differ on when we talks but it's nice. We are talk about life, family, career and love (?). It's a beautiful night to sharing our story with beautiful ladies. Really love u guys. I hope we can gather again in other time. XOXO

...

Ok. Now. Today. Thursday. It's my last day to work before I start holiday. Tomorrow I start my unpaid leave about 2 month and going to UK on this Saturday night. Hurmm.

notakaki: tenks to my ex-boss still support me. terharu.

Dilemma

Tinggal lagi 1 minggu sebelum aku terbang ke UK. I do not know whether I do the right decision. When I think bout this..it's make me feel nervous. Jiwa berkecamuk.

I have planned this almost a YEAR. When the time is coming..I'm confuse. Urghh! Puhlease dong...!


Notakaki: apa la yg akan jadi kat aku nanti.sigh.

Saya si cemerkap

Wah...! hujan laaa.. saya suka! saya suka! 
Jom update cepat-cepat then boleh tido!

Hari nie Selangor cuti sempena Nuzul Quran, so I decide going to Visa Application Centre (VAC) after sahur. But ko punya after sahur kan rehan...pukul 7.30am baru ko kua umah kan.... ko tau tak KL tue jammed gila nak mampss!!

Before ke VAC aku dah booked appointment pukul 9.10am. Dah ku agak...sampai je kat MRR2 STUCK sehh! macam seepot..seepot pon lagi laju aku rasa. kiki

Dah la aku nervous sebab first time nak buat visa kott then tak tau environment dia cemane kan..dengan jamm lagi!! sob sobs..

Naseb baik la sampai kat konter pok guard pukul 9.05am..tunggu nak amik pass card aku tanya pok guard tue perlukan IC ke?dia kata perlu...tapi passport pun boleh TAPI (ada lagi tapi dia...) kat atas nanti mungkin diorang nak juga IC. SUDAH! IC aku dlm keta kot..aiseh! berlari aku amik IC. Clumsy la ko nie rehan . . .

Ok. Apa-apa pun aku kena re-appointment sebab document incomplete. humps!

Nyampah.

Mana aku nak cari cuti tah!

Sudahnya aku ke Jalan TAR tengok-tengok org jual baju kurung n usha-usha shawl. Semua tak berkenan sebab dalam kepala dok ligat nak cari masa to settle all this. haih . . .

Dah. Nak tido.



notakaki: aku memang clumsy. nyampah!